Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Sad Day


Today was a bitter sweet day. It's not my last day, but it was my going away lunch. Because I work with far more people on a daily basis than just the people who work for my agency in my office.....today will be the last time I see most of those people outside my office. At least for a while.

It really hit me today that I'm really leaving this job. I am not going on vacation or maternity leave. I'm leaving. I wont' be back. It's scary.

I know it's for the best. I keep repeating that to myself. ha! But I am very very sad to leave my close friends. I wish I could put into words what this group of people has meant to me over the past 4 years. I cry every time I think about not seeing them and them being a part of my every day life.

I'm feeling a lot of things right now. Mostly I'm afraid of the unknown. I have done this for about 4 years. I'm good at it, I know what I'm doing, people respect me, and my reputation. I can do my job in my sleep. It's not always easy, but I do know what I'm doing.

Starting a new job is scary, working with new people, starting from scratch. It's all daunting and there are a million unknowns. But I know that it is time, I know that God has given me this specific job for a reason and I am really excited about it.

It's just all very bitter sweet for me. Tomorrow is my last full day, half of which will be spent in court and then I will work Thursday morning. I'm taking 1/2 the day off for a personal matter, and then Friday morning I'll make the last drive to headquaters to turn in my car and all my equipment. So basically, I'm mostly done.

I know these friends are life long friends and a new job won't change that--I love you guys. So. So. So. So. Much. This is a million times harder than I thought it would be.

Keep up the good work. I am proud of the work you do. I am proud to have been a small part of it for a small time. I love you all.

5 comments:

jess said...

this is just how i felt! it's amazing how hard it is huh?..and even more so for you im sure since you'd been there longer! just remember that this is the best thing for you for right now and that it's true that we really all ARE lifelong friends. love you!!!

The Treeces said...

I know that you will be missed.

The Keylors said...

I don't think I know about all the changes...leaving, new job, etc... You need to update me on all that's going on.

Melody said...

Hey, I know this doesn't really apply to this post (of which I am sorry you are sad by the way) but I just saw pictures of you little man on Jess McCash's blog and he is absolutely PRECIOUS! Your daughter is adorable too. I love her hair! Bailey's is starting to curl in the back a bit and I just love curls :)

Jessica said...

I'm happy for you. I totally understand the fear that comes with new territory, but if anyone can tackle it, you can! You are mighty!! : )