So I've been crying off and on all week and today spent most of the evening in utter pain! My mother-in-law has been thinking of getting a job and working instead of watching Jordan. She has been speculating about it for about a week and had a couple of interviews and has been offered a job. She doesn't WANT to stop watching Jordan, but I guess she needs to have more gainful employment than the meager wage we pay her. Which I understand. Unfortunately this creates a HUGE stressor for me. I have absolutely LOVED having Jordan with her grandma while we work. Jordan has enjoyed it as well. It takes away any worry I have of her not being cared for properly.
Because I spend my days looking at children who have been abused in some fashion, it is indescribably hard for me to entertain the idea of a stranger, or even someone I barely know caring for my child. It is just not an option for me at this point. My mother-in-law told me today that she is going to work next week for one week to see how she likes the job, which is what the employer proposed because she was hesitant to take it. So I’m perplexed as to what to do next week and the weeks thereafter if she decides to stick with it.
My options are: 1-Find a day care with an opening that I can afford that is conveniently located between home and work, while I worry for 8 hours a day 5 days a week that my child is not being properly cared for. 2-BJ quits work and stays home with Jordan, continuing to work his part time job in the evening and attend classes online, somewhat stressing our finances. 3-Quit my job and sell my house, live in a trailer, get food stamps and live off the state.
Since none of these options are what I want, I don’t know what I’m going to do. We are leaning towards #2. But we’ll see.
Anyway, I’d appreciate your prayers on this matter. Selfishly, I’d like for my mother-in-law to keep watching Jordan, but that is selfish and well, ya know. Ok, I’m crying again so I’m going to go. Please pray for us.